May 29th, 2004


Vacations suck when there's nothing to take a vacation from

Well, my folks have been away for this last week. I should be enjoying myself, not having to worry about waking them up in the evening or getting kicked off of the computer when my dad needs it (I need to get a working PC of my own again). But I've really just been blah and apathetic. Aside from the bar misadventure, which really feels like I blew my one chance at some fun for the week, pretty much every day has sort of blurred into the next in sort of an undifferentiated grey blob. I'm having a hard time motivating myself to even get out of the house.

I'm stuck in a rut. Having a job would alleviate that a bit (at least until I get into a rut with the job). But I've even been putting off filling out that stupid Zachary's application. Part of it's because it's a minimum-wage part-time position, and I don't think it'd end up covering my bills (it doesn't have medical either). Part of it's because I've never worked in foodservice before, and doing anything new always freaks me out. Part of it's just little stuff, like having to fill out stuff like my dates of hire for previous jobs, which I can't remember, and my elementary school GPA, which I really can't remember (it didn't use a letter grade system anyway). I look at this thing and my eyes glaze over. It's not even long or anything, just 2 pages, but it just scares the hell out of me for some reason.

So, um...yeah. Here's a rapping hamster:
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